Well, yesterday I was in a decent mood. I somehow found enough energy and motivation to clean most of the apartment and help cook and stuff. Today is basically the opposite. I still had enough to do my usual chores like do dishes, clean the kitchen, sweep and vacuum. After a while, I was able to use the computer and my usual routine. I was bored, so I read Kim's blog and surprise, surprise, no mention of me; not even a little 'Hi' or anything. I have not once, ever seen her mention me in it, not even as a friend. I'm telling you, this is driving me insane. I don't feel like I'm worth a damn to her anymore. I mean, c'mon, I don't ask much of her at all, but when she doesn't even take the time to let me know that she's thinking of me, or even acknowledging me makes me feel like s**t. I sometimes just wish I was a robot, or didn't have emotions at all; then it wouldn't hurt. I could just serve my purpose and be done with it. I'm not religious at all, but I pray that I can get through this and hope that it gets better.
 JVIaleficent · Thu Jul 26, 2007 @ 01:28am · 0 Comments |
