We have a walking path in my town good for exercize. It's also a good time to let your mind wander, to let your thoughts spill out over everything. xD
Yesterday I walked again, it was raining somewhat but I'm trying to stay fit. ^^ Tons of thought usually pour out, sometimes I just complain about everything to let it out. ^^;
One thing that has always bugged me is, that I've never dated. I've never had a girl come up and ask if I wanted to go out with her or anything. Well I haven't met any girls where I live, to feel impressed to go up and ask them, plus I'm kinda shy.
But still, this annoys me because here I am, single, still a vergin, someone who respects women, and is drug free and all I see are girls with John Deere Trackter men. xp
I live in a small town full of hillbilly-ish people. No offence to them, they're nice and friendly. ^^ I like them but all I see is that. I mean even handicapped people go on dates!
How come I haven't yet!? Am I don't something wrong? I mean how am I suppose to know what to do when I find the one. ^^; "Oh yes I've never dated before so yeah, look how great I am!" xp sorry again.
I just don't know how long I'm going to be in Ohio, my family says that we're going to move, but that's a long ways away...Sure right now I'm out of a job, I'm looking though I'm not lazy, but what does it matter.
You have guys that don't do anything, who still have a girlfriend. It all boggles my mind so much..then I think, what if I'm suppose to be single forever? What if there is no one out there for me...
I've thought about that a lot. I mean I go online and talk to people, and when I talk to a girl they're like "Oh you're so cute!!!"
Uhh thanks...yeah..well at least people online think I'm cute..yet I can't even find a date xp.
bah,
but yeah walking helps me. There are so many things that go on where I live to, I only get a small bite of what outside Ohio is like thanks to the internet. ^^;
Yet anyway, I'm sure people feel the same I do, stuck in their own little corner of the world. ^^;
Sometimes I don't even know why I post stuff up on websited. LIke DeviantART. No one really seems to care much, no matter what I put up. xp I don't get comments.
Sometimes the internet can be the loneliest place in the world when you feel like talking to someone. My feelings can get easily hurt, so when I'm ignored I get a little jealous. Mainly because I'm ignored in my hometown because we're 'outsiders'. xp
I don't want to be the center of attention, but I don't want to be forgotten either. ^^; I am coping with this though and trying to remain positive but it's still hard. ^^;
I also tend to put my foot in my mouth. I realized this after saying some things that hurt a friend of mine. I sometimes also think that people are NPC's and not real..xp
so I can say whatever is on my mind and they'll agree or not care, but the internet isn't like that. I know that there are living, breathing people on the other side of this goofy little cartoon avatar. Yet I still fail to see it. ^^; lol
I do appreciate all they do for me though, sadly I don't always have a way to re-pay them. ^^; but I try to and really do appreciate what I get from them. 3nodding
Wow this is probably the longest journal I've done, well anyway I'm out for now. ^^ lol I've talked your ears off long enough razz xD lol
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