After loosing a friend online, who with all respect I will not mention because this person is on this website too ^^;, I realized something. What really is a friend? People talk today about friendships and friends, but what really are they?
I know that friends never let you down, or are always there for you. I know they accept you for who you are and don't shun you because you may not like the same things they do, but I dunno. I tend to get clingy so I know that isn't a quality of a friend.
I just care for people, I want to make them happy and support what they do. Maybe I can get t a little odd, or maybe flirty, but I always am there for them. Online or in real life.
I hear over and over again, "Why do you care about someone you'll never meet?" why not? I mean just because we never meet doesn't mean we still can't be friends.
The way I look at the internet, I find online chat to be like talking to a pen pal. You never see your pen pals, but you get to know them. I think people have forgotten that. I know the internet can be dangerous, but that depends on how you present yourself.
You can be creepy or you can be kind. I know when I lost that friend of mine I was more shocked then hurt. Sadly I can't ever talk to that cool person ever again, but I'm dealing with that. I also realized that maybe I may have pushed her into a corner or said something that may have sounded creepy. To that I'm sorry. It was my fault that I let this friend shun me. I let them down because I was too clingy.
I still wish I could talk to this person and straighten things out but that probably will never happen so I'm moving on. Anyway I'm losing focus here so I'll get back to the point.
I just want eveyrone to know that no matter what, even if I act creepy which I'm not xp, I'm here for you as a friend. ^^ Sure we may never meet but I consider those that I talk to, to be cool pen pals. ^^
It's easy to blow someone off or let them go when troubles come or when you argue, but I think a true friend would talk things through with that person instead of hurt them by dropping everything. I'll never do that, so you all don't have to worry. ^^
I just hope I haven't been to odd or clingy. All I want is friends, I'm not here for love. I'd rather meet my girl in the real world then online. ^^; so I'll only chat. It's also easy to develop crushes.
I do, I sometimes will fall for someone's personality, I know it sounds lame and stupid, but that's just me. But would I come visit them or put them in an awkward position? No, I'm not a moron. I could never hurt anyone like that. So I'll never come visit anyone. I promise. ^^
I just want people to know that they're not talking to some creep. I'm 23 so I know it's a bit odd that I'm on a silly website. ^^; I just like this sort of thing. xp
anyway I can talk, and talk, and talk. So I'm done. I don't know if I made any sence, because I'm bad at this sort of thing. Oh and I have forgiven my friend that I lost. I just hope one day this pen pal of mine can talk again. You were really cool.
Thank you for the memories ^^ I hope everything is going well with you.
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