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I'm scared. I feel like I'm on a knife about to fall. Things my parents said bobbing in my head. Rising to the serifs at times then falling back below. Am I a stupid kid that can’t handle things on her own? Is my boy just an infatuation, hormones, will he leave me like they said he would? Up and down, when I try to fight one it sinks and another floats up. Will ALL my friends eventually leave and betray me? Mom calls me today crying, saying she misses me. Am I a horrible person for not seeing her more? Then I stopped to think about WHY she called me. It turned out that she and dad had just had a fight. And who did she call but me, the one person she really shouldn’t in these situations. I shouldn’t know that mom wants another baby and dad is resisting because of money! I'm their kid not their consular.