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song+ dare you to move / switchfoot
book+ women's encyclopedia of myths and secrets
scent+ Christmassy candle
quest+ fox paraphernalia .. *keels*
upper+ ryuu ^^...
downer+ no ryuu currently within arms reach ;.; and feeling icky
attire+ blehhh
drink+ green tea
Yeahso ... just posting out of boredom now.
Mehhh. I feel so totally lethargic lately I can barely move. DDD: I woke up this morning feeling like I had fallen down some stairs. And I keep having nightmares, every single night. Well, day. Can't sleep at night. This has been slowly draining on me. ;.; And they always run on the same theme. It's like GEHHH. X_o;; I'm subconsciously wigging out about things that I shouldn't be .. but .. I can't help it. -_-; I used to *never* have nightmares. I mean, since like 14, I pretty much stopped having them altogether. Which, yay. But now .. ;.; it's the stress obviously. It just never ends here.
Everyone is always, always arguing here about everything. I'm so sick of pointless drama every five seconds. ;_;
I really want to go outside and run around in the park .. =/ no energy. I've been sleeping all day, and I'm tired again. I was hoping that lady would call about the job I might get .. but I'm being impatient. ^^; I kind of want to go over there and harass them about it, but that might just annoy them more than anything. I need a job sososo bad. ;.;
Speaking of which, I know mum is not going to get a job. -.- She's not even bothering to try and LOOK like she's looking. =/ And Esme is quitting his job, due to punching his boss. There are two jobs he's looking into, but regardless, his friend is moving out soon so Esme will be out of a place to live. o.o And if he has to move in with us ... insanity will occur in the form of us all going nuts due to his anger management problems. Also, he's a total a** to live with.
I want out of this situation so bad I can't stand it. T.T; I hope that I do get this shift manager position that she offered me, but now that I've been thinking about it, I'm kind of afraid. I don't handle responsibility very well. D: At all.
I mean, I can deal with *myself* .. but overseeing other people on a regular basis? Fearfear. The Bueno in Ardmore was less .. organized, I guess. They let things slide. But this place is like Center of the Bueno Universe, in regard to sales, and apparently they demand perfection from the people they hire. And .. ahhh. ;.; Too much.
Meanwhile I've stopped watching the news as much as possible. I'm sick to death of disasters, political crap, and endless amounts of media-created drama. I have enough of it at home kthnx. talk2hand
And this is really random but I think I'm diseaseeeed. In the form of my face itching horribly. I've so far managed to not give into temptation and scratch. But it's agonizing. It's causing me to be extremely hot-tempered and jumpy and murderous towards everyone, followed by more exhaustion. >OOO I can't figure it out. My cheeks are slightly pink and it's just .. confused A sunburn? But I haven't really been outside much. It could be a fever? o_O; I think it is. ( Yeah, 101. X_O; )
Annnnyway. On a side note, I was wondering, what do you all think I should attempt to get? Fox ears/tail? Devil horns/tail? I just dunno. o.X The devil tail would take forever for me to get. My avvie is just so blahhh. T.T Le help?
Meanwhile, I'm now stuck in Xenosaga. Well, not so much stuck, as have given up on it for a while. I think if I tried I could beat the Giant Cathedral Thingamajig. Meh.
Need Ryuukun. ;.; Very muchly.
 The Viscount · Sun Oct 09, 2005 @ 03:13am · 9 Comments |
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