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	Makani can get bored as well. Um. yeah. I have no ****** idea. probably stupid emotional rants and mindless babbling or quite possibly just random st.

	One is the loneliest number.
	One is the loneliest number.


You know, it really sucks not having anyone to snuggle with or kiss goodnight. The past 4 years, I've had that, and I already miss it... too much. Waking up alone, cold, I don't know how people do it. It's so hard to cry and not have someone hold me anymore... makes me cry harder. I hate being alone. I seriously can't stand it. I want to know that someone loves me, and I don't want to have to worry about being alone forever because who knows how long forever is. I know, I'm 19, and I have my whole life ahead of me, but how long is that? I mean, I don't know how I'm ever gonna open up to someone like I did with Rais. After having my heart ripped to pieces by him, I can't trust what little heart I have left with anyone. It seriously feels like half of me is dead. I just wish all of these feelings and these dreams would go away, but I know they won't. My head says I should move on, but my heart wants to go back to him. My heart wants him so bad. I'm so scared to be with anyone anymore, though... even Rais because what if he does take me back and something like this happens again? I won't be able to handle it. I can hardly handle this...... I mean, I've already ****** up twice cutting wise. I try so hard to find other ways to deal with it, but at least when I cut, I feel alive.... I just want to love and be loved in return. That's all I ask. melancholy_vomit** · Sat Nov 22, 2008 @ 11:27pm · 0 Comments


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