i think... i've created myself.
i can't do magic, im not demonic, im not angelic...i think i'm somewhere in between. i dont think i have any powers, although when i feel intense emotion, i feel like something's supressed within me...even when im showing emotion. i think that MAY be some source of power. that, or my emotions could be stronger (though i don't know how)
me: i try to be as mature as possible without losing who i am, i try to feel for everyone. i dont try to take sides either. but today i almost threw a straight up fit when i realized i wasn't able to help at all because of who i was. i was offered magic, but being taught that doesnt feel the same way. i also dont think 'my' magic is light. i think it's some other element. i just have to figure out what it is.
i was told love is magic. but there are also some flaws with that. love can be different than what everyone thinks: there are different types of love. and i dont know which one IS magical. this upsets me.
i walk a barrier. not the same barrier others do between good and evil, or light and dark. i walk the barrier between the angels and the demons. i am neither, but at the same time i am both. i can be arrogant and blind to anything but what i see. i can be more violent than desired, and sometimes my caring for someone can cause me to hurt other people i care about. but i can also be kind, and a good friend, and just to others. i try my best to stop, or prevent arguments. or my friends hurting eachother.
so far, i think what i need to do the most is figure out my 'power'. i know i'm not normal. and i know im not as special as others who can, make a rose pop out of thin air, or spark a fire from a random place. but i know i can do SOMETHING. my power may not even be an element. im going to figure this out somehow. if you have any ideas, comment please.
 June Malatesta · Sat Jul 11, 2009 @ 02:37am · 0 Comments |
