What would have happened… What would have happened if I was with him? If I went with them that one time. If I stayed where I said I was going to? Maybe his heart would still be beating. He'd be in love with me and not the other way around. The smallest thing that I could do, to relax my head. But all I can think is, "What if?" If I never met you. If we saw that movie we said we were going to that night. Stop while we're ahead and breathe. My mind is racing and my feelings are taking up so much space. I could be in your arms instead of shivering in the cold. I'm so out of reach… I wish there were something to hold on to. Like a branch so I could pull. But then… what if I don't pull. If I don't fight this. Will I go mad? But of course we're all mad here…
melancholy_vomit · Tue Jul 21, 2009 @ 04:48pm · 1 Comments |