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u see not the sparkle in my eye nore the gentle smile on my face...
i steal the laughs of others just so i could laugh like i once could...

i feel just as unreal as ur love for me... just once... can i feel ur love? just once more before my heart breaks... swallow me utter dark

u placed ur hands on my hips guiding my movement.... i looked at u... u looked back... for a moment... we kissed...

this feeling is so strange... am i dreaming?

Oh god i think i'm falling... from the sky , i hear a voice... "will someone catch me?"... but no one cares fo the fallen

don't try and fix me... i'm not broken... but my heart will be...

i may not shed tears but i am still hurting... it's difficult to show feelings when no one cares... don't ask why... idk...i just don't cry on the outside anymore...

please...put the barrel of a gun in my mouth... do it!!! pull the trigger... it's ok...i've learned to bite the bullet

but before that... kiss me good bye... i'd want to taste ur lips before the icy steel...

but u don't have to...y'know...

i love the feeling metal... even if its the cold steel barrel of a gun caressing my temple... if it is i hope ur the one who pulls the trigger...

it's ok... shoot me in the head... i have no heart to aim at...

but i'll stop here... i don't want u to feel bad... not for me...