God, I don't know. . .
Do I even deserve to spend my life with another person? I don't even know why I constantly try to make myself up for the ugly person that I am inside.
A little makeup here, a little lace around my hair and I'm still just as vulnerable as the next kid in town. I think I'm unique so that one day he or even she finds me unique.
I always try to be a pretty face in the crowd and that's not me. I know I'm something worth greater than something I try to aim as.
I try so hard to be a girl and it sucks because in reality I'm not.
You have no idea what it is TO BE a transsexual, it ******** sucks. You spend pretty much your entire life convincing you are the real person from within, but everytime you're at your high. . .people just want to go and ******** up your parade, oh it's nothing like having AIDS or cancer. It's a constant mental debate and it doesn't matter if you win or lose because in the end, you're fighting with yourself.
I might be having a bad morning, or something was taken dear from me, or I might be even listening to some really sad music. In the end, you're not debating with me. . .
So, here's my thoughts to the world or honestly, the internet:
I have insecurities, I have feelings, and I have a heart just like each and everyone of you.
And if you're going to take a hit, you better hit real ******** hard. . .I stand with my fists down.
Lady FOS Community Member 
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