no i really did i felt on hangin and im like s**t go then i like wiped my nose and there it was .... so i went to the mall today to shop for s**t like i went to dicks to get a tent then i went to jcpenny's and i was just lookin for cheap s**t like tees shirts and i was lookin and there was like im guessin it was a girl but i dont know could of been a guy i mean it was shoppin in the guys sections but damm it was sex like either way i was like ....staring hard guess i was tryin to figure out if there was a d**k present but either way s**t sex like edgey sex.... anyways i wanna fix up my backyard for this summer like ima get one of those blow up walmart pools like 3 feet tall and then around that ima build a deck around that then this one woman wants me to build her this like tiki thing in her front and so iron s**t around it i think it'll be sex .... oh yea i went to a black church and i didnt really wanna go in the first place cuz s**t ima be real when you the only color either way now in a room you feel diffent like everybody was lookin at me sayin hey how you doin ... i dont like attention but i was arkword but then the food part came and i was like s**t yes im at home they had the best chicken noodles ooo good hot damm good too but i've been slippin from god i have cuz i like i know enough but i dont and i was gettin mad at this preacher guy cuz he was talkin about this crazy guy how you can learn from a crazy guy.... why the hell under gods roof would you down another human beeing thats like pointin out somebody thats retarded they cant help it maybe you should talk to them and they might be smarter than you... but then he got in to where how people look for acceptence like you need a person you telll you that your beatiful and stuff how people need materical things to feel happy.... all you need is jesus and his acctepence thats the only thing in this world that you asoubulte need well just about but life.... well lost my train of thoughts