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In order to explain what's going on with my body you'll have to read this story:
A few years back I broke my arm. Some douchebag decided to take revenge against me for beating him up a week before (he'd hurt someone close to me and had it coming), while we were playing baseball in school he somehow ended up pitching. This gave him an idea. "I'm gonna kill this kid with this baseball." So he tried, he threw the ball straight at my face to and I didn't have enough time to think. All I could do was put my arm up and try to protect myself. The ball ended up breaking my arm in two places. What happened after is mostly a blur..
At first they tried to fix it by hand. They used an X-Ray machine and held my arm down to re-align the bones. It didn't work (this later turned into a fatal mistake), two weeks later they tried surgery. It worked that time, for a while it seemed to be fine. I recovered with some therapy, blah, blah, blah.
Anyway, last year I started feeling weird. My arm hurt all the time and I couldn't really sleep/think right. I ignored it thinking it was just the weather affecting me like it usually does. It came to pass that I passed out in the middle of my classes a few times without any reason for it whatsoever. I realized this wasn't normal so I went to the doctor, got some X-Rays, some blood tests, and some bad news. Somehow the doctors who did the surgery ******** up. They scratched one of the bones in my arm and it got infected. This lead to my blood getting "corroded" or something of the sort and this led to me getting Anemia, which means that I'll faint randomly due to my body not having enough healthy blood cells, and some other things.
Here's what's going on now, and has been going on for a while now:
The stress I'm feeling, from my exes torturing me daily, the horrible guilt, some of my stupid memories, school, and from everything else around me, is making it all worse. It's making the infection spread from my arm around my body faster than the meds I take for them can keep them under control. In other words, my stress is literally killing me.
My doctor said I have to eliminate as much stress as I can since physical stress, not only emotional, can speed this up. If I get too emotional, I'll die. If I push my body too hard, I'll die. Etc. That's why I'm gonna try to stay away from Gaia. I won't quit per se, I'll be around from time to time, but I can't stay for long since Gaia is Drama Central and that's no good. The doctor says if I can eliminate enough stress I should be fine soon but that's not working so far. If nothing else, I hope I can at least slow down and delay my own death as much as possible... Heh...
I'm sorry you had to read so much but I though this was important enough. I'll be around if anyone needs me, or... I'll try to be.
Thanks for reading this,
--The Forsaken Hollow
 Shiki the Forsaken Prince · Wed Apr 25, 2012 @ 04:20am · 8 Comments |
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