ok so it's been a while since i've written anything. mainly because i'm way too damn lazy, but since i'm sitting here bored as hell i figured why not update my journal. so i've been ok i guess. friday i went with my friend michelle to our friend lauren's calling hours. lauren had been sick with leukemia for a while and she had a bone marrow transplant. unfortunatley, she died anyway. it was so hard to go to her calling hours and see her like that. normally she was full of life, even though she had spinobifita and had to be in a wheelchair and then she was diagnosed with leukemia. it was so sad, i cried so much that my make up started to run down my face. well that night i had my friend michelle spent the night at my house.
so the next day we went to the zoo. we got to see some of the animals and i finally got to pet the sharks and sting rays. it was also my mom's birthday, so we celebrated and we got her a cake. today she got all pissy with me for nothing. she really need a chill pill. she started s**t about how i really shouldn't have had any of her cake last night because it would just make me even fatter. so i kind of got pissed off and was like don't worry about it i threw it up anyway. i might as well put the eating disorder your ex boyfriend gave me to good use after all. so she smacked me really hard and told me not to talk back to her. god parents are annoying, i mean what the ******** did she want me to do, cry? to show a sign of weakness in front of my grandparents is like asking to be whipped over and over again until you're bleeding and raw.
so then she got a call from her ex, whom obviously i despise, with good reasons.
i mean he beat me and his daughter and called us fat and ugly all the time. he put us in the hospital once, he beat us so bad. my boyfriend at the time had actually taken us to the hospital and he tried to call social services on him to get us out of that situation. yet i am appearently still required to like this guy because my mother loves him. to make it worse he's the father of my almost month old little sister. so it's like there is no escaping him even though he's the one that broke up with my mom and kicked her out. well now he wants to get back together with her. so of course my dumbass mother is like oh i knew you would love me forever. so now we have to do something with him and his daughter. even though, while they were broken up i wasn't allowed to see his daughter at all and she's like a sister to me.
well of course the first person i call when i found out that my mom had been talking to him was aaron. i told him that she had been talking to him again and that i thought she was gonna do something stupid like move back in with him. so aaron basically told me i would be stuck with my grandparents and stuck going to copley because his bitchy little snot girlfriend, who he's now living with, hates my ******** guts. i guess she's jealous of me because i hang out with aaron so much or something. plus she really hates me now because i told her if she had nothing better to do than be jealous of a sixteen year old she needed to get a life.
then, of course i'm really pissed off because being stuck in copley is the last thing i ******** wanted. i hate it here, and i thought i was finally going to be able to get out. well, no, now i'm stuck there for another ******** year. s**t, they'll be lucky if i'm ever in class, i'd rather sit in inschool, even though it's ******** freezing, than sit in my shitty a** classes and deal with people who i want to kill so badly it shows. hell knowing me i'll probably get pissed off my second day and end up walking out, or calling someone to come get me.
yet, that's never enough for my life. now i'm supposed to be getting up at like 9:30 or 10am to watch my neighbors kids tomorrow. which wouldn't be a problem if her kids weren't such ******** brats. coz she would only be gone for an hour or two at the most. she's only going because she needs to have a bone scan done on her bones or something like that. so if her kids weren't brats it would be an easy job. i dunno, hopefully she'll give them seditives or something so they'll just shut the ******** up and sit down ad watch t.v. i don't really mind mornings, but when i've been up half the night, like i'm sure i will be tonight, it's not so pleasant and watching loud, obnoxious children doesn't make it better. now, if they were good, well behaved children i could deal.
thank god that after all of that my friend leah is kidnapping me for like a week. so i won't have to deal with any of this bullshit and i get free alcohol!! yay for her stepdad's stocked fridge and cabinets. i swear it's the dream house of an alcoholic.
anyway, so that's about it for now. knowing me though, i'll have something else i want to b***h about as soon as i'm done writing this and i'll be like oh s**t i forgot this. oh well, i'm done...
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