So sad stare ...psht. That game was luck. We lead 10:0 and then they came back to score 17 freakin' runs in one damn inning. Then we came back to finish it off 18:17. Luck...we didn't deserve that. I made enough errors, although they weren't all my total fault, and got pissed at myself. Anyways......ahem.....the pressure is counting down. About this time tomorrow night I will be near eruption. I have 3 layouts and copy due by Friday in gddmn yearbook class and I also have to get an interview with the behated principal for a stupid newspaper article, and not to mention havingggg to go visit businesses to sell ads Thursday. I dislike how they pile everything onto you in like one week because they never specifically told us what to work on or when its due and then to add a weekly article idea assignment due Wed, etc...Then there's all these gddmn mid-terms. Book report due Wed, to which I have yet to read a book....heh, SAT word test tomorrow, Spanish, History, and extra-curricular s**t. Woah, I feel like I'm back at my old OD...or at least when I was free to write whatever BEFORE everyone freakin' started reading. Hmpt. I have a slight problem of a certain person being hung on me. It's sad. Don't forget Kevin, lame a** annoying stalker freak. Oh well, other than that I'm happy...I suppose? Seeing as how I dk what 'happy' is...Eating at the Affle King made me miss Phillip..grr. Goddd, I just want some freakin' comfort. I have to admit I am way better in moods and s**t since last year. It was a wreck last year. Very complicated going through such a change. Mandi asked me to choose between two treasured things and of course I answered how she expected, which is...wrong..but ya know...it's true. I feel horrible for thinking like that. I hate almost everything about me. Like I've said before, and friends have also stated...To think we have such awful lives filled with confused emotions and difficulties, and then look at all the people who have it worse like being beat or had to go through life alone or poorly........we don't know what think of how we so selfishly think 'we' have it bad.....it's bad enough we can't handle it as it is...But they truth in my matter is--I've brought most of this on myself. Thanks God for being so wonderful in getting revenge... sweatdrop
 The Sexsa Effect · Tue Oct 05, 2004 @ 04:13am · 0 Comments |
