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gonk nyaaaa ... I have a dificult situation at the moment that I have to deal with. You know, I thought once you graduated all those relationship kind of dramas would end. Well sadly... I was wrong *sighs*

So yesterday was valentines day... the one holiday I hate with a passion. Its either a very lonely day OR its a day that cuases problems. Last year I was in a long distance relationship.... he sent me chocolate through the mail. Well now we're broken up (Since last summer heh) and I'm what one would say "back on the market"

So heres the problem... I was at home, since I didnt have classes, and I was with my nana and my sick little sister. I thought it was going to be a slow day, just hanging out with my 9 year old sister and play video games with her. Oh boy... was I wrong. Some time around noon, there was a knock at my front door. Answering it I saw it was one of my friends, who I have known for sometime to have a crush on me. So there he was, standing at my door step with a red bag filled with stuff. And in that bag was a heart shaped box of chocolates, a heart shaped carmal sucker and a stuffed toy.

Now you see this complicates things, I dont like him that way... I only see him as a really good friend. I'm not looking for a relationship, nor am I ready to have one again. I have been through loads of relationship drama over the years... well ok only in grade 12 becuase this one guy kpet hitting on me and pinned me on couch >.>

When I reject him he could take it in a horrible way. I've seen how he reacts when he's turned down... I was his bloody therapist through all of grade 12 sweatdrop What will happen is I will get shunned from our whole group of friends and he will make it so. I will be black listed. I will be excluded from all social events, no anime marathons, no late night movie trips and no Dressing for the anime con to match heh sweatdrop

So I have to be extra careful for when he asks me out and I have to turn him down *sighs* I hate stuff like this.... its all fricken drama that I dont need! I have college to attend to! I have to find a job! I have all these others things to worry about, not some relationship .... ugh.... Well all I can do fornow is avoid him till friday.... Friday is his birthday and a bunch of us are going to see Consitine (sp?) well I hope theres a bunch of us cause if there isnt it will end up as a date... and I dont want that gonk Dates lead to that ever horrible arm around the shoulder and drop you off at the door thing -.-* ...

Maybe I should go into hiding...... I have a few connections in Clearwater..... someone will hide me for a few months.... years... >.>