A Wilted Rose Frozen Within the Tears of Yesterdaby Kerry and I
A glass tear falls to the ground
--Breaking-
(Releasing all of my pain)
I crash to my knees-staring blankly up at your face
Then glance toward my hands
They’re shaking violently
--Covered in bruises-scars--
Blood…
(Or maybe it’s just paint.)
I look away-ashamed of it all
Embarrassed as your eyes lock on mine--
I just want this to be over
--To feel again--
(I need it to be over-need to forget)
My heart bleeding
--Slicing organs as the fluid drips down--
My soul recoiling
--You broke me-
(And yet it’s still not enough for you...)
To see me burn…
Amused by what you’ve done-
You placed my pain in a jar
--Just another trophy on the shelf.
This hatred taking over
(Drowning every care)
--Consuming me now
Leaving just an empty shell behind-
Such that of a memory
(My eternal being lost)
I tried to confide my lies in you
I want to leave-but I stay still,
Unable to let go-to become close
I’d strive to steer myself further away
Ice seeps through my skin
--Slowly entering my veins
Flowing strongly right through me
And I want it to freeze over
--To numb me-to free me-to become me
As the water overflows inside
(--Just let me forget)
The mind is my worst enemy
The one who brings it back each night
As I lie in the dark-
Composing thoughts to infect your vision
--The memories returning
Your cruel words resounding in my head
I used to love you-just as you used to love me
You're trying to destroy me
I'll only live again
Traveling through your veins
Until I live inside your head.
This body always holding me-
(As your arms did each night)
Unable to be independent.
--Clamped to my hand is yours--
I'm not permitted to leave your side
What makes you think I'm just yours to own?
Just a book-tossed aside without care
Pages burning as the storm breaks through
It’s getting harder to keep my eyes open-
I just can’t stand here-giving myself to you
Yet I feel obligated to be there for you
--You’ve disabled my speech-
I got my wish
(I’m frozen inside-frozen in time)
Locked tight in your capsule
A wilted rose on the windowsill
Still rotting in your lonely wake
--Welcome to my world.
Inside the mirror-distorted images appear
(Watch closely as the cracks deform my picture)
The unknown beauty lost within the tears of yesterday
Stepping out of the shadows-
I feel the light-acid to my skin
--Poison to my lips
Rain pouring over me-drenching me
--Smothering me
The demonic sea below-pulling me under
(I struggle to breathe)
And you watch from the pier
Slowly over seeing the things that were meant to swallow me
(Rain falling down my face)
You’re just a distant star-
Strangled by the clouds
I cannot save myself
(Or perhaps I’m just not willing to care)
 angel08 · Tue Feb 22, 2005 @ 08:07pm · 0 Comments |
