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Conflicting Nightmares Residing Within Your Perfect Memory
By: Kerry and I
Remove the veil,
I now need to see,
What it is you’ve done to me.
From inside my very soul I peel the pain,
The skin has hidden the scars for too long.
I thought I had found a way,
Around your mind,
Away from the torture,
That is consuming my life-
Blank faces blindly staring-without regret
--Robbing me of the little humanity left
And placing it into a broken jar.
This lace, now binding me
Pulling me sharply-
(I can’t breathe)
--Suffocating-
Desperately gasping for air.
You were once a part of me.
(Swallowed my heart)
You played with the fire
(So why was I the one burnt?)
--It’s time to set me free,
The knife of insanity-
Slowly cutting it’s way through my mind
--Through my heart
--Can you hear?-
My voice is carrying through the clouds,
I will scream,
Just for you to hear,
The pain I’ve been living with,
Since you ripped me apart.
Lying here on the floor-torn to pieces
I look to a narrow threshold-my bones aching to leave
(I just need to get away-to move on)
Repair what Holes you’ve carved in me.
Two nights had passed,
But the agony still seeped into me,
Like puss weeping from a scab.
The poison traveled through my soul,
Much like the disease of love,
That rests in my heart,
(For you.)
You can never open me up again,
To infect me with the hatred you feel for her.
I can see it in your eyes-
This hatred running deep-so deep
Emptying you until only a life-less being remains
(One I can’t recognize-no longer the one I had once loved)
I close my eyes-visions flashing before me
I’m just a label for your pure amusement.
Glancing sideward I see a dim light-
(Spying-lurking-maybe it’s searching for me)
Slowly widening-brightening
Shielding my eyes from the now blinding light
(It’s taking me in)
I fell into the fire,
To extinguish your face from me,
Watching the night dissolve your flesh,
I cry, just trying to forget.
--Never will I be free from you-
Even if you walk away.
You were once a part of me,
And a part of me you’ll always be.
Stalking nightmares-haunting the night
(Nightmares of you)
A phantom of darkness reconfiguring feelings no longer present
(Feelings for you)
I’ve stapled your name to my arm
In hopes to dissect you
But now I’ve lost you
(You Dragged my soul through all of oblivion, )
Sore hands-red from all the straining.
I tried to lift my head,
But there was no energy to complete me.
Sorrow swamped me-I let go,
Couldn’t hear the evening howls.
Operated on my life for the last time,
In attempt to break the hold,
Which had a bond from me to you,
I can’t forget-I must forget.
(Why are you a perfect memory?)
I glare up towards the sky-everything fading away
(Even you...)
A numbing feeling spreading through my veins
--Bring me back to earth
(The forgotten memories returning)
They’re slipping through the shades
Burning back into my eyelids.
(You’re somewhere inside me)
I will never understand the damage that has been done
From what you said to me all those times
What I allowed myself to believe
It was unbearable to watch to disappear
Felt like a crowbar pushing through my skin
May as well have been-with how much pain there was to follow.
Drowning in my own despair
Feeling sorry for myself-how ridiculous I’ve become
Hiding away in the forever fading shadows
Where still you all can see my face.
I just want to be forgotten
--Never to be found
I just want to be shielded from the world tonight
As the stars disincarnate,
Until I disincarnate…
 angel08 · Tue Feb 22, 2005 @ 08:43pm · 0 Comments |
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