Even that title reminds me of something. It reminds me of the song rambling man from Steam boating. So annoying so aggravating. so...grrr!!!!! I don't know. I just don't know anymore. Though really, I shouldn't be thinking of this now. I should be thinking about my homework and my class request for next year. I know I'm pushing myself, but what choice do I have. All I have left is work. So I work. My friends don't really know me and I just feel...empty. Empty in a way that I don't know how to fill. Just a few days ago I was sitting on the sidewalk with two of my friends. They're both more outgoing than me. They started talking about what they want in a man. Then started listing the things I would need in a man. They don't care what I would want; they just want me to be more outgoing too. What's the point though? All it would do is lead to a broken heart. Everything leads to that though. What will a love life do to me though? Distract me from getting a decent job. That's all that seems possible. Dating is a mess. Communication is almost always impossible. I'm not going to try anytime soon. It's a waste of time for me when I could be planning my future. I said it a few entries back though, "That's a problem with me. I always prefer to live thinking about the future rather than living in the now."
 midnight-mystic-dragon · Fri Mar 16, 2007 @ 12:24am · 0 Comments |
