When i was fourteen i lost some one very important to me my father he died four years ago of a heart attack. i miss him very much and it still hurts when i think about him . how it started my mother had gotten a phone call from saying that my father had died. she called me into her room and told me what had happen , when i
had heard the news i went num , she started to cry alot i left her when to my room and just stare at the ceiling on till i fell asleep i just told my self i was having a bad dream and i need to wake up that's all '' just wake up'' .but the more i tried to run away from the turth the more the pain build up inside of me . a few years later a women was taking to me she asked me about my dad . i don't remember what she asked me at all but all i remember is i started crying then started yelling '' he's dead he's dead i want him back " she told me that there were people i could talk to who had lost a loved one just i like me. at first i told her no but then she told me that i need to deal with it our i fill continue to suffer with the pain of losing him for the rest of my life. i decided to go . i had weird dreams where he would appear the first dream i had of him was when he appeared to me as ghost and i became so scared i ran way from him i thought he was going to chase me but he didn't he just disappeared.
the next dream i had he had returned and i ran form him again but this time he came in front of me and wouldn't let me pass the he said ''why are you scared of me ?'' ''i would never hurt you'' and he left again . another dream i had was that i fell off a hill and i kept falling and he cought me and just smiled and left . the last dream i had of him was i dream that i was an adult he came up to me and
i ask him if he was proud of who i became but he didn't answere he just smiled at me and disappeared and that was the last dream i ever had of him.
 xoxolovebunny · Fri Mar 16, 2007 @ 02:58am · 0 Comments |
