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So I guess this is a bit of an update in my life.

Alot of stuff's been happening. Drama. And I don't mean the class that I hold so dear to my heart.

I have honestly never wanted to commit suicide so many times in a short time period before. If it's a shocker to you that I'd even think about that, then I guess you don't know: I have emotional problems that I try and keep locked up inside me as much as I can, but sometimes I just.. pop. :] I've just literally spent hours and hours sitting in my room, sobbing, shaking. It could be little things that trigger it - like my mom yelling at me for not cleaning my room. It just ends up too much for me. But, oddly, I'm much happier afterwards.

Yeah. I'm sure you don't care. I'm sure no one's even going to read this. Oh well.



So, I've been put in charge of making a few images - banners and stuff - for Olerien. And I'm reeeeally happy, too. But then again in a way I'm kinda irritated with myself for taking it, cause I know that what I have planned is never going to happen due to either lack of tools, or just lack of..knowledge. Eh. But I hope, either way, that it'll turn out really good and will make Olerien look more.. professional. Or something. I don't know.

So, my idea was to make a big image for the front page place. On it would be information about Olerien, along with a few things I've drawn. Or should I say people, who include myself, Adi-kun, Akira, Uru, Scratch, and YSF. I'm not quite sure how it'd be arranged - that's for me to find out later. But how I imagine it to be is totally freakin' TUBULAR. Yes, tubular. But, like I said, lack of knowledge and tools will make that image probably never happen >>
And you know what else is totally awesome? Well, I went to scan up what I had drawn, and I found that my scanner wasn't being itself anymore. Usually it either doesn't scan at all, or it takes forever, or it only scans a portion of the picture [that makes me most angry]. But now it's doing NOTHING! It prints, sure - cause its a printer/fax/scanner. But it doesn't scan.
So my whole original plan is put on hold at the moment. Meh. Sucks. But I'm making something to put in it's place until I can. It'll be crappier, but. That'll give me time to work on some banners and whatever until I can work on it.


Umm..I guess that's it. I doubt anyone'll read this. xD Oh well..


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