• I've been dating my boyfriend since 11/28/09... Me as a Sophomore, and him as a Senior. It's been a long time being together, and we certainly enjoy each others company all of the time. But here was this one thing... That I still can't get over... That one thing is jealousy. His friends were mostly girls, and every girl who were getting along with him more than they should be, I wanted to slap her across the face. Jealousy eventually lead me to lack of trust in him.
    4 times. That happened to me 4 times with 4 different girls. One girl was my friend, an oboe player who gets on my nerves quite frequently. I seriously thought her and my boyfriend would be a matching couple if he haven't met me in the first place. They were both "plump", they both knew more about music than me, and in music, oboes and clarinets are quite compatible... But I was proven false. My boyfriend disliked her. She annoyed him during practices and her sense of humor apparently made her look like a huge jerk.
    The second girl was my boyfriend's best friend, who now is like a sister to him. She was beautiful in a very delicate way, and there was no way they didn't like each other. Well, they did like each other at one point during their Sophomore year, but they decided that they weren't going to date. She's a very nice girl, and I do look up to her now.
    The third girl made me so freaking upset. She was nice, and beautiful... Absolutely beautiful. And she got along with him very very well. They were just a passerby friend until 3 days after we started dating, when her, my boyfriend, one other guy and girl went to Tri-State at FSU. After Tri-State, they've become EXTREMELY close to each other. They talk about some stuff at first, until she says: "Oh, remember that one time in Tri-State when Sever..." Then they go into their own little world, reminiscing about their happy and interesting days at Tri-State. That... annoyed me. She's gotten so attached to him, that I wanted to rip her away in a heartbeat. Months and months later of confessing and crying about her to my boyfriend, he told me that she now had a boyfriend, I stopped. And she noticed my presence and started talking to me. She's alright, I guess.
    And the final girl... Pissed me off. I don't really know her, but her presence pissed me off. Again, she's an oboe player, very cute, has boobs, and goes to the same college my boyfriend goes to. Once, he asked if I could go to Busch Gardens with me, with her. I couldn't go anyway because of the ACT test. They didn't go, though. Then, a couple of days later, when I was complaining my butt off about how I'm a total failure in life by not being able to have a high enough GPA, he compared my GPA to her's. Her GPA was higher than mine, but she had a significantly lower SAT score than I had. The comparison ticked me off. One thing I hated was being compared to a prettier and smarter girl (was proven by my boyfriend that she's a dumbass, but her GPA doesn't lie...), the girl who has potential to steal him away in a heartbeat. Later on, after an hour and a half of converse through the phone, I was proven false that he liked her. Every single girl was proven false, but I just couldn't believe it.
    I'm starting to get some trust back... Slowly. And I can't wait until this school year is over. This year has been a torturous year with the 2 tough AP classes I'm taking, and all of the pressure everybody's putting down on me.
    I would talk about band leadership stuff, but I don't want to.
    What a crappy ending to a book.