It's Just Me

• Artist: ReahDroof
• Description: So I'm not much of a writer...this is just my personal thoughts!
• Date: 05/27/2009
• Tags: just

My move is getting closer and closer. I'm passing millions of milestones as I go. The end of my performances at a local theater that I got started at. The last test. The last ELA pop quiz. The last day of school.

Before I know it, my last day here will be here. Tomorrow is my last end of the year party thrown every year at the same place doing the same thing.

I guess I've learned things. I waste so much time. Doing nothing but fighting or bad-mouthing or pointless stuff and none of it matters because soon enough, I'm never going to see any of this again. I know every road, every neighborhood, every shortcut, every landmark, every big happening, ever little happening, everything. Is that all just going to disappear when I leave. Will I still know the shortcut to the gas station? Will I still know that there are only two stoplights in my town and know exactly where they are?

Or is this all going to be replaced by the "big town" stuff? Like every mall, every theater, every center, grocery store, playground and pool? What is going to happen to me! I feel so alone because I don't understand WHY! I can ALWAYS understand WHY! But now I can't and I feel like now I don't ever get myself anymore.

Since no one is going to know me there, I want to change myself. I don't know how to be myself so I shape myself into someone else. It can be fun. But suddenly I feel like the puppet. ALL I CARE ABOUT IS WHAT OTHERS THINK!

I guess I should go.

Reah.

Comments

[Dovewing11]

Exactly what the Sir said. Listen to this:
Ive been trapped my whole life trying to fit in. Its always trying to be "cool" and doing things so I can get a name. Then one day, I was at a party and someone challenged me to a drinking contest. I was about to say "sure", but then I realized what was happening to me. I was becoming part of the crowd. My life was a mess. Then I said no. After that, my whole life changed. People come up to me for advice and I've made many people happy. (((H))),
Dove

[SirSalem13]

You know, you should really be who you truly are...no matter what other people think. That is the most important thing in life. There is nothing worse than a person who is fake.