• Masking the pain is hard. Probably one of the hardest things to do.
    And when you asked me the most sacred of all questions; Never owning up to the fact that you did. What do you do? You crush me I gave you my heart, and you left it there, like it was the leftovers from last night's supper, on the ground.
    Pain stricken.
    Crushed.
    Broken....
    Broken beyond repair.
    When you did this to me, did you know what you looked like?
    A completely sraight face. As if you didnt even care.
    So here I am, siting in the desk, masking every pain, every down right emotion that wants to take over my poker-face. And here i'll stay, smiling and saying the words that are complete lies.
    "It's perfectly fine. I understand."
    And for a long, cold moment, those words tasted just as they sounded. Cold, dead lies. I just wonder, if you can hear the sadness as much as I do. So there you sit, smiling. Happy that you finally think im completely uneffected by your words.
    Such small words; Such a great effect.
    And the next day, I get a word from my best friend. The words, they stab into my heart like knives. These words i can barley believe, nor want to believe.
    Kaylee, _______ is already going out with this chick named ______.
    All the emotions that I thought i'd been able to mask perfectly some tearing through my heart.
    Had you been planning this all along? Was this your master plan? Get me out of the way so you could try your luck with her?
    All the emotions: Fear, pain, sadness, Hatred, and pitty all swelled up inside of me. I felt as if i were to burst. And the worst thing is; Next class period, I see you again.
    I had to Swallow every sense i had, all though it hurt, before going in there. And, of course, when i did, you sat there at the table, smiling like always.
    I asked if it were true. Has he really started his time with this girl. And flat out you said it; "Yes, there a problem?"
    And of course, i shook my head.
    I'm such a weak person. Many of my friends would have killed him by now, if they were in my place. But however, I don't possess the ability. All i can do is sit there and fake the smile i've faked for years as you go on and on about how you and the girl are so in to each other. Asking me what you think you should get her for Valentines day and such. For the first time, i wanted you to shut up. Plain and simple. I didnt want to hear it. But i kept my mouth shut and nodded in agreement to what ever you said. . And you'll never know how i felt on that day. Not now, not ever. And even though you hurt me more than ever, I still hope you have a wonderful life with her, and I want you to know that I'll still love you.
    ~Kaylee~
    "And then she said she can't believe."