I Just Need To Vent

• Artist: beppiblu
• Description: You don't really have to like it or read it or anything, i'm just being an emohead. I actually listened to scremo when i wrote this. Oh. How I hate screamo...
  
  But then i listened to the grateful dead, so i'm ok. But the context still holds true half the time.
• Date: 09/29/2010
• Tags: just need vent

I hate that I'm so.... me.

I mean, I'm not one of those self-hating people in the strict sense of the term, I just hate my personality. I wish i was different. And it amazes me how, as good of an actor as I am, I find it beyond myself to be different, better, more appealing. And it doesn't help that i live in the one place on earth that I couldn't get a boyfriend.

Furthermore, I'm hellishly shy. I am so insecure, and I need people so that I don't feel lonely. And what annoys the HELL out of me is when my mom goes on and on about how i don't need anybody. And it hurts because I know I would disappoint her to know that I actually DO need people, which in why I want a boyfriend. I am convinced there are good guys out there, they just don't like me.