• Staring at the night sky
    I start to wonder why
    Why do I stay where I don’t belong
    Where what I do is always wrong
    I can’t take this for very long
    I haven’t felt safe for so long
    Am I strong enough to carry on
    Every day I live a lie
    It sickens me inside
    Sometimes I wish I would die
    Cause my life is never what I decide
    Underneath a shell I hide
    Two of me reside deep inside
    I hate what I’ve become
    So alone and hurt
    Hidden scars lay beneath my shirt
    Reminders of how I’ve failed
    Failed my mom and brother
    My friends and family
    How I failed my dad
    It’s truly sad

    Help me I’m losing my mind,
    I just wish I had more time
    To sit down and clear my mind.
    I wish everything was fine
    But its all messed up just like my mind
    I’m running out of time
    Don’t even know where I’m headed
    But as the smoke clears
    All my dreams are shredded

    I play the part of a simple boy
    And the part of a soulless man
    Lending a shoulder to those in need
    Hoping they will be alright
    I’m so scared that I will break
    That everyone will figure it out
    That I am so very weak
    Want to see my soul
    Go ahead take a peek
    I doubt you’ll find what you seek
    You’ll find my feelings roaming free
    Locked inside a box surrounded in shadows
    Sealed in darkness and blood
    Buried underneath my chest
    Fearing defeat and wanting to be free
    No one will truly understand me
    My life is a curse to many and a blessing to few
    I only wish that someone knew
    How I truly feel and who I really am.
    A soldier, a brother, a son, a cousin, a homie,
    How I truly feel and who I really am.
    A friend, a thug, a demon, an angel, a man alone.


    Help me I’m losing my mind,
    I just wish I had more time
    To sit down and clear my mind.
    I wish everything was fine
    But its all messed up just like my mind
    I’m running out of time
    Don’t even know where I’m headed
    But as the smoke clears
    All my dreams are shredded

    Its verse two and I already knew
    That I done messed up my life
    Involved with gangs and drugs
    My homies show no love
    Love will get you killed
    No matter how skilled
    Its never enough to get that cash
    To be the king of the clan
    Wait till you fall on your a**
    See who’s around you then
    You’ll see who’s real and those that pretend
    Its crazy, all that I’ve seen
    I’m just trying to be truthful
    I don’t want to be mean
    But no matter what you say
    Nothing is what it seems
    I’ve seen some dark times in my life
    It’s always ever-looming
    Lots of struggle and strife
    Merely my presence is dooming
    I’ll always stand alone
    Way at the top of this war
    Sitting alone atop my dark throne
    My soul to eternal darkness is what I swore

    Help me I’m losing my mind,
    I just wish I had more time
    To sit down and clear my mind.
    I wish everything was fine
    But its messed up just like my mind
    I’m running out of time
    Don’t even know where I’m headed
    But as the smoke clears
    All my dreams are shredded
    Welcome to my life….