• In heartbeat you handle me like broken glass
    I falling into your wastebasket feeling forever forgotten
    Failing at your knees, forgotten beyond retention
    I am irretrievable and yet deniable.
    You hold me out at arms length, never closer
    You don’t know what I have come to know
    You can’t feel what you refuse to understand
    You’re a stone cold blind man
    A Helen Keller to others feelings
    You abandon that light and let loose your reign of terror and defeat
    Sabotage all the good so you can feel the pain you cause
    When you need just stop
    You wont open that door
    You can but you wont
    Your control is your addiction
    So what really controls you?
    I feel you in everything but I can’t find you anywhere
    You refuse to fit, you messed yourself up
    This defeat is just your way of not handling it
    You don’t want to lose the control
    You grip tighter as you bleed out
    The earth absorbs your body’s tears
    You’re a part of it all
    The center and all around
    We meet where it ends
    I won’t budge, you will never relent
    If we all jus gave up then the game would end
    I need you to give the pain or it might never go away
    The hopeless endeavor of the broken traveler
    The needs of all are the same but un won
    Every battle for a new day
    Defeat is attainable but incomprehensible
    But what to choose?
    Do we give in and become what we must?
    Or do we follow the dark path with thorns and pain
    There is no knowing if your flowing
    Only going so GOGOGO and hate
    Feel it burn your veins and ice your heart
    Can’t feel it anymore
    Nothing, just that black comfort
    No one understands, simply retrieve it and stay
    The comfort is no shame; it is just your own comfort.
    To find the happy in the gloom
    I won’t follow but I can’t stop myself
    That power should never have been yours
    Don’t be desperate, love yourself
    Your better than this….so much better
    Cherub will find you and you may never know
    But hold on with the same dedication, to one that deserves it.
    With all that you are
    Pour you’re everything
    Love yourself for once, its ok.
    It so hard but its ok.
    I’m here.