I of course feel something for one person that I probably should. but I am starting to fall for someone else too. Tis hard. I know they are both great guys. One has things the other one doesn't... things I search for. That I want... But then the other one lacks what the other one haves.... Except for the basic cuteness, sweetness, treats me good, funny, all the things they both have but in different ways.
Why is there always two!? My gawd...
Well one I've dated... the other I haven't.
So new experience or old?
Hmmm...
Oh and on a less complicated note. I had a awful day today.
One of Xylia's a*****e little freshman friends said something ruude about me that of course everyone knows now, or is just going to start noticing now....
I'm already hella self-consiennce (sp) which everyone always says is stupid cuz I'm pretty. Which isn't really true. I'm not awful but I'm not gorgeous like Xylia mostly and soemtimes Jen and my mom say I am.....
I got super embarassed when he said it and almost started crying...
I still almost cried in 5th. Gawd I hate him. After he tried touching my boobs? he's an a**. a heartless a*****e.
I don't even know this kid and he's trying to touch my boobs!
******** c**t.
Gawd I hate when people are just plain mean. When they point out your imperfections just for the hell of it. Just to be mean.
I am crying now. Great. Over that? I am pathetic...
Idk maybe I'm too sensitive... But still that hurt my feelings.... A lot...
A lot more then I will ever tell anyone... Unless someone reads this that knows what happened. But I truly hope no one does.
I just need to write so I'm writing here. Just hoping no one reads it....
Thats why I can't write on myspace....
So if anyone ever reads this. Mostly you Xylia...or Juan...Or Jen...even Jordan and Ryan. Don't ever bring it up again. Please. I just needed to vent. I don't need people to talk to me about this. It won't make anythnig better it will just make me feel weak. So please don't. Just pretend you never read it. Ok?
Ok thats it.
 not_goth · Tue May 22, 2007 @ 12:10am · 1 Comments |
