I haven't updated in a while. It's been a long week. Let's see, solo and ensemble went well... I got a first and a second on my solo, O Del Mio Dolce Ardor, and two firsts on Mikey's and my duet, All I Ask of You. That was fun, paid off for all the hard work. The rest of the week just kinda went downhill. In the middle of the week someone wrote "******** you" on my locker. Not scrawled over a bunch of lockers, but nicely printed on just one in permanent marker. They got the ink off, but you can still see it. *sigh* Then for a few days my asthma's been pissy at me and won't be normal. People need to seriously stop taking breathing for granted, it's an awesome thing. Same with walking, climbing stairs, and jumping around.
I've been depressed like lately... I don't know why. I guess everything is just kinda coming down on me. Right now I just want to cry honestly. I have tears in my eyes, but they aren't falling. I don't know. I just feel like kicking and screaming and crying my heart out. Then turning up my music to the loudest it can go and just sing-sob along. I really need that.
I wish I could miss school tomorrow. I need a day off, where no one else is home. But I can't - I have to stay after and tutor music to 3 close friends who are joining choir next year. Maybe if I have an asthma attack tomorrow morning...
It could work.
If I'm not there tomorrow it's cause I pulled off an asthma attack. If I slow down my breathing, cough a lot, it'll be easy. Taxing, but easy. Especially since I had an attack (a minor one) during mass today. Gah.
My knee is killing me right now too.
When will I ever stop falling apart?
On a happier note, I might have a babysitting job now for Dan's relatives. Their baby adores me. :3 She's so cute~ And the 1 year old is cute too. I need money anyway, I wouldn't mind giving up time for it. Better than Office Max.
Anyway, I'm gonna go do chem just in case I don't win with my asthma problems in the morning.
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