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I'm travling along the lines that Josh was just ******** with my head to see what I would do.

...bad to think that, though....

Onii-san says I think the worst to much and he's right...if I fear the worst, though, once it happens it won't hurt as much.

No word from Josh today, though...at all...even after he said he'd call me. I dunno...I keep tellin myself he's just busy with RO or his dad said no comp or something like that...just not those bad things my mind is so succeptable to. I want him to say he wants me and needs me and stuff...but I don't think any guy will ever feel that way about me.

I thought Onii-san did...and that made me so friggin happy and it made me feel nice inside because I want him too...but after these last few PM's I see I was wrong to think that...

No point in being depressed, though. Just keep tellin myself that and everything will be ok.

I hope it will, atleast.

We did honor's society induction ceremony today. People were cryin and stuff like we were actually graduating or something stare It was pretty boring...very boring. It was the first time though in a long time my mom actually came to an awards ceremony of mines....

School was good today. Atfirst I was depressed, but Myles cheered me up when he told me what he did to Travis so all is well. Travis even appoligized for bein a lil b***h so my day been good.

Right now hangin with Izzy who doesn't hate me for breakin up with him. I'm shocked and happy he still treats me teh same. whee

...so besides being 'Josh sad', today went well. Since I understand its ok.

I would write so much more...but I'm tiered as hell from the ceremony so good night.

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