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Well, last night after I said "happy 4th of July" was horrible. I completely broke down in the bathroom. I cried and cried and cried. I almost made myself throw up, that's how bad it was. Thankfully, Brittany was still up so I talked to her for a little, but nothing seemed to make me feel better. I just couldn't calm down. So, I did my solo in my head and I at least stopped crying. Taking a shower helped a little too, and then I headed upstairs. Brittany kept telling me I should get to sleep since it was late and we said goodnight around 2:30 a.m., but I still couldn't sleep. Have you ever felt like your head is so full of thoughts that you couldn't do anything but think? Well, that's how I felt so I couldn't sleep. I think I might have fallen asleep around 3 or 3:30. And then I was woken by Kreig (my brother) at 12:10 p.m. who said that we were going over to our neighbors in twenty minutes. I don't know how I was ready to leave, but I got dressed and everything in time. But, I didn't feel like going over there. They wanted to see pictures of when we went to visit mom, Twize, and Editha (the two kids we are adopting) in Africa. Since that is why is cry, I felt awful. I didn't feel like talking about it, but I kind of to. I never feel like talking about Africa or my feelings. That's just me. Talking about mom, Twize, Editha, and Africa put me in such a bad mood, I didn't talk at all during dinner or go out to watch the fireworks. Well, I guess that's enough of my ranting.
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