The stangest thing happend to me this morning. I woke up in Bobby's suit. I went to sleep in the main room and woke up tucked comfortable into Bobby's soft bed. For the life of me I am not sure how I got there. I know I do not walk in my sleep and I didn't have anything to drink so that's out. I am normaly a very light sleeper so you can see why I am confused. But in my heart I think I know what happend. I know that Bobby has been having trouble sleeping I hear him passing and have even seen him slip into the kitchen to cook or clean. I have a feeling he saw me sleeping and moved me. He is so sweet. I am not sure how I slept through it though.
Bobby really is a great guy. He is so kind and sweet... He's been great to have around the Inn for help and for friendship. I am not sure what I would do without him. But then at the same time my past keeps me from really opening up to him. Jasia... my family... who I am... where to start... what to tell him... what not to tell him... I keep thinking of the theings Chase has said to me. Keeping my poast my past adn so on and I do feel she might be right. No one could ever understand or except me... not like Jasia... some times I am not even sure why Jasia understood...
Then there was the sad good-byes. James had left. He packed this things all his things and thanked the staff one by one. Then he thanked me. He told me that well he was here at the Raven for the first time in a long time he felt at home. A lot of my guest tell me that but with him it was differant. He leaned in and whispered in my ear that he wished he was differant because as he was he could not stay or could he have allowed himself to get any closer to me than he already had and he wished very much that he could have. Then for the second time since we meet he leaned in and tenderly kissed me. This time my heart did not do back flips or fly to the moon, this time it broke. I hate to say it but there was of part of me that did dream of him. He is right we were to differant he was.. well it would not have worked but that did not stop that part of me from wish it could. Thankfully Bobby is still here and he is has been a real comfort.
Kitty
 Chase Kayol · Tue May 24, 2005 @ 06:48pm · 0 Comments |
