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Panda-tastic
My rants, not a life plan.
I'm so yummy~

Today was ok...but I feel really sad right now. sad

It's the stuff with Sann...I dunno...I feel bad. Like I've done somethign wrong. I just can't imagine what I did....

Joey keeps saying its nothing; maybe he's just not in the mood to talk right now. But like...

It was rude to "disappear" those few days I did...but my heads been so confused lately. I'm trying to peice it all back together, and yes that means I've been avoiding my online friends. Everyone actually; except a few people on Gaia. I haven't been on online since Wednesday...er...not online, but like on like I usually am. I want a break from this "net world" I live in.

It's sunny outside, I've been having a blast. 3nodding Driving my car, playing with my sibs, and just enjoying the weather. I mean...I dunno...just doing not online things and I like it alot more than sitting infront of the computer all teh time. It's so much fun outside and hangin out with everyone. Not so much more fun...just...I miss that kind of interaction with people. 3nodding

...and now I miss Sann. I left a message but he didnt' get back. I suppose I should be more persistant...but I was persistant with Isaac and now he seems to think I'm some freaky stalker person stare I don't want Sann to think of me like that, sad his opnion means so much to me...

It seems like...well...lately...I try to make friends with some asian kids irl and Sann's asain too an dlike...all these friendships I am attempting aren't working. Since that thrillin lil porn clip I saw I noticed I'm developing a bit of an asian fetish. I don't think fetish is the right word...but like...I dunno, like that kid at the career center likes anime too and wouldn't be all shy about it like my dork friends are and I wanna hang with a person like that. 3nodding Another kid who goes to my school is named Tom and he likes anime as well and is super smart whee Tom, as I am told, has a thick accent though gonk He's a freshmen too 3nodding I'd hang otu with 'em though wink

Beh...maybe I just shouldn't try making friends anymore? I'm not good at it...always so damn akward....

Back to Sann, though...Sann....::sigh::....I'ma tlak to him sometime today or tommrow. I'm watchin Law and Order: SVU and CSI 3nodding those are my yummy fetish's too~ heart

When I'm not outside harrasing people or actin my goofy self xd I'm playing AOE. Yes, yes...that old game Ages of Empire. I heart it. Me and Joey are playing it. blaugh Joey's way good at it and I just masted it on easiest mode biggrin

xd

I'm suppse to be gettin some mail from the college place thing I"m goin to next year and I haven't gotten it x_x I can't take the preliminary test to get in next year if I don't have that info gonk the lady I talked to last time got all smart with me so I dunno what to do...

It's "that time of the month"...and I am sooooooo ******** emotional. I keep crying when I watch "sad" movies and feeling all this pity and sadnness and shiz crying I'm not like depressed though...just like content sad. xd Can you even be that?

Kevie's goin to that anime thingie in Cali in teh summer...I think I'm goin too. I dunno if Joey can go though crying Lots of peeps from my guild and its allies are going too cool we're gunna have fun~!

Joey....mmmm.... 4laugh My Joey~! He makes me soooo happy. I love him so much redface very very berry much. It'll be three weeks tommrow and we still haven't arged I haven't gotten mad at him and been a b***h or nothing! 4laugh I really am changing and I am so happy to see it in action!

Mmm...did I say he got me angel wings on RO? He gave me 15 million zeny to go buy some and that was all his zeny and...and.... crying I can't believe he would do that for me. I wanna make him happy too 3nodding I will...I plan to. :3

Oooo...I'm...actually not hungry for once. gonk Yay! 4laugh

I'm bored...about to get offline soon :3

<center>Online < Boredness</center>

Yawn yawn yawn...I'm sleepy too. Joey's not off work for another two hours gonk

I gotta bake this cake...I mean, don't gotta but I wanna. I wanted to do it earlier today but I got so side tracked. I'm always gettin like that x_x

Mmmm~so bye bye yummy peoples reading this!







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Mugen_Death
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commentCommented on: Sun May 29, 2005 @ 01:44am
Good that everything is going well with you and if your gonna make asian friends...good luck, why? because they are a selective family meaning they choose wisley who they interact with and they dont like americans all that much XD oh btw i made priest w00t on me >_< now ive been tanking everyone too


anyways...laters


commentCommented on: Tue May 31, 2005 @ 06:37pm
[luffalways] rawr. =DDD



jblade
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