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i made plans to go out with the one friend i do have.... and plans are canceled. i hate making plans, if i make plans that means im looking foward to something, and if im looking forward to something that means im excited and happy.... and we cant have me being excited and happy. so they get canceled, people got sick, so no plans, no party, nothing.... this always happens, this is the way it goes im just to stupid to remember that, i cant make plans, i cant have anything to look forward to..... i cant be happy.... emo