Sunday, October 14
I feel as if I'm going to explode. I've held up okay so far. I've been strong. Took it like a man.. or whatever. But I can feel everything slowly catching up to me. Putting on the strong, happy-go-lucky act has always been a natural thing for me. Yet sometimes.. I just really need a break.. from everything.
Sometimes my depression gets so bad that I don't want to do anything. I can picture myself lieing on the floor, huddled in a ball. I lay there by myself in the dim light. Tears and memories flow at once. Slowly the realization that no one will ever come to save me fills my mind. I'm stuck there, forever, completely alone.
I put myself there on the floor. I could have stayed standing in the doorway so that in the off chance of someone passing by I'd be saved. But no. Laying on the floor gets you nowhere. No one will notice you there. No one will see the tears.
Part of me wants to go lay down. Laying down on the floor seems to be so much easier. Comforting even.
Standing and waiting is making me tired and weak. I can't last much longer. I need help and I know it. Calling for it would be stupid though. I can't do that.
MK
I feel as if I'm going to explode. I've held up okay so far. I've been strong. Took it like a man.. or whatever. But I can feel everything slowly catching up to me. Putting on the strong, happy-go-lucky act has always been a natural thing for me. Yet sometimes.. I just really need a break.. from everything.
Sometimes my depression gets so bad that I don't want to do anything. I can picture myself lieing on the floor, huddled in a ball. I lay there by myself in the dim light. Tears and memories flow at once. Slowly the realization that no one will ever come to save me fills my mind. I'm stuck there, forever, completely alone.
I put myself there on the floor. I could have stayed standing in the doorway so that in the off chance of someone passing by I'd be saved. But no. Laying on the floor gets you nowhere. No one will notice you there. No one will see the tears.
Part of me wants to go lay down. Laying down on the floor seems to be so much easier. Comforting even.
Standing and waiting is making me tired and weak. I can't last much longer. I need help and I know it. Calling for it would be stupid though. I can't do that.
MK
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