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MY LIFE IS HELL!!!
i dont know why i should consider living anymore. im not emo, as if anyone cares anyway. no im not. im just depressed. deeply depressed. what's wrong u may ask. im alone. it's horrible, like living in a dark room, and having the love of my life being the only light, but, wait: she's not answering me. she hasn't been on for a bit, but when she has been (yesterday) she hasent answered my mail. maybe she found someone else, and doesnt want me anymore. but who can i talk to about this? NO ONE. they'd take me to a psycho ward and put me in a straight jacket. im sure that they would. i hate being depressed. depression: it sucks to feel such a thing. i just want my bri, someone to talk to, someone to love, and be loved by back. in the rl, im not a very cool person, but on computer life, im posing as a cool person, because, hey i am. but only in the virtual reality world. i gotta go now, maybe i'll find a cliff to throw myself over, because im convinced that my soul mate is not mine anymore, but im a worthless cretin, unworthy of my love's attention, and unworthy of even her slightest knowledge of my very being here. plz. anyone, if im wrong, let me kno, i'll just be wallowing in misery and only dreaming of my lost love, of the one who i believed was the only one for me, and im still sure that she's mine, but im not 100% sure anymore.