I feel so depressed.... I really want to see her today. It seems like forever that shes been gone and forever until she gets back. I will have to get her a really nice present.
My mind has been acting so strange... Its like it refuses to believe that she's not here... That she'll call me soon... Or that it chooses to believe that she was never really here at all. My dreams wake me up in the middle of the night, every night and I can't get back to sleep... The one thought that runs the fastest through my mind, filters through the most is 'I know why I love her... But I don't know why I never told her...'
What would it be like if I did tell her? Whould she say yes, no... Does she love me, or does she dislike me for never saying goodbye?... Does she miss me? Think about me at all?
I hope...
I guess I'll have to wait... Waiting just feels a bit more like dying this time around...
My mind has been acting so strange... Its like it refuses to believe that she's not here... That she'll call me soon... Or that it chooses to believe that she was never really here at all. My dreams wake me up in the middle of the night, every night and I can't get back to sleep... The one thought that runs the fastest through my mind, filters through the most is 'I know why I love her... But I don't know why I never told her...'
What would it be like if I did tell her? Whould she say yes, no... Does she love me, or does she dislike me for never saying goodbye?... Does she miss me? Think about me at all?
I hope...
I guess I'll have to wait... Waiting just feels a bit more like dying this time around...
