It has been awhile since I last journaled so what are my thoughts on this 5th day of a NEW YEAR?......let me see......
Oh yeah.......No New Year Resulutions for me! Everyone that I have made I never kept so why make them? I just hope for happiness and good health for everyone this year. In my household since the last of 2007 we have been sick. My wife is sick, I am sick, even the cat is sick. Don't you just get sick and tired of being sick. My cancer is getting worse....I know that things are going to get alot worse; but I am holding on to all hopes that maybe I can live alittle longer. I have been married over a year now and I would love to spend more time with my beloved. Cancer is very, very painful. Some days, I just feel like I can not go on; but I look in my wife's eyes and I see her love for me; and I cry Please God give me alittle more time with her. The thing that I don't like about Cancer is not only the pain I go thru but also the pain everyone else goes thru watching you as you die! Hopefully thru my suffering maybe, just maybe they can see how much I value life. Many people just exsist and don't really live. Today, I wanta live and share the deepness that this world does offer with all those that I love. Please pray....that next year at this time on Jan. 5th, 2009 at 6:25 am; I will get to reread this entry and still living happlly with my loving wife. Please dear God, take the suffering out of her eyes as she watches me go thru this hell called.....CANCER!
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