What am I supposed to say to you? With pretty words do you wish me to entice you into believing in forever? Do you wish me to write you stories in which the one you desire always ends up in your arms?
I do not know what to say. It is why I can't seem to write when I want to, to draw what I feel. I do not know how I feel, I do not know what to say.
Simple words are fleeting and meaningless to some yet to us and to me it is the very foundation for my life. With my words it seems as though I've gained your heart without meaning to. I do not regret it for who could? A fool and only a fool. And without my words it seems as though I will lose you. And yet I can write no love songs, or even a simple line or lymric of how I feel.. I've had other songs in my head that are not my own. My artwork, I have no desire in it anymore. It's almost as if I don't need it. The simpleness of being alive and being with you (in anyway possible) seems to have calmed my mind so that my thoughts are no longer frenzied, so I am less likely to grasp at one and scribble my heart out or draw what I feel or see. Do not be dismayed when my answers are not as poetic or when I am quiet. I am the same as you first knew me but for one thing. Now, I have you and that has brought me peace. Though I have taken a little while to let myself be at peace I have still attained it. Thankyou. If you are dissatisfied with me all you need to do is let me know. Remember my words I once wrote to you, "I will be whatever you want me to be", and so I shall. As you love me I shall love you, as you need me I shall need you. What ever you wish beloved, if it is within my power, all you have to do is ask.
 Namida no Akira · Thu Jan 24, 2008 @ 02:29pm · 2 Comments |
