*sigh* School starts on August 8th... sweatdrop
The first feeling i get in my head is excitement. I can't wait until i actually step foot to a new place that ive never been to xd I mean i'm a whole new person... not some nerd who has bad taste in jewlery and clothing xp . I dont feel that way anymore... I feel like i was reborn and made better (i know some or atleast one who will know where i get this from xd )... I'm not the same "me" im different and it sure feels good... i've got the clothes i've always wanted, the bookbag and i also have my old friends by my side... everything seems great!! blaugh I want to go to school and meet new people and this time i'm going to bring my homework everyday blaugh heart xd . So many new and wonderful feelings about this but also there's some bad ones xp
New people... it makes me excited but also tounge-tied. xp What happens if i say something stupid as i always do... it may feel like ive changed but when it comes to the point where i'm supose to test it nothing happens confused ... I return to my old self and that gets me sooo mad... Also i get paranoid about how everyone will treat me... its like i care more for others then myself or something like that sweatdrop ... *sigh*... Changing myself is what i want to do... i want to become tougher on the outside and inside. I want to show others that i'm not weak and never will be. That's what i want... and also to have alot of friends. 3nodding rofl I like to smiles of others... i cant help it... its been like that ever sense 4laugh A friend of mines said it'll hurt others if i do that but how?... She refused to tell me =_=;;... After i told her what she wanted to hear *cough*sotoldheraboutthebacktalkingthing*cough*... what a ***** stare Sometimes i dont get her and sometimes she doesnt get me and thats sometimes a problem like with her and my other friend fighting =_=;;;;... No offense you guys but both of you are more immature then me for fighting for something a 5 year old would fight for xd actually one of them is guilty and i'm not telling who xd xp youll have to kiss my a** to get it out me bitches!! Haha!! 3nodding domokun Just kidding!! Though ask me once i'll say no... if you keep on asking i'll curse at you and i know how one of you hates it when someone curses xd a curse word is just a word... geez the only thing it could do is make you cry like an a**... xd I say them so when someone calls me that i wont get hurt by it... doesnt quite make sense i know too bad get use to it your reading my journal youve been warned some how by reading my journal's title xd
I know i sound like a b***h... Well i'm tired of this stupid fight... stare Even though the discussion has ended there's always going to be a connection to it xp Like i was thinking... at school... when we go for the first day... and we all eat lunch together... not going to be pretty sweatdrop ... Damn it why cant the other just say she's sorry and there!!! xp She doesnt know that shes the one trippin... ninja
If one of you read this and start complaining take this: talk2hand
This is my journal, mines!! and i can write anything i want and make it public for the whole world to see and if you got a problem then shut up, be quiet and except what youve just read. 3nodding
Anyway... Eventually they'll kiss and make up xd or they'll not just talk with each other and sit with each other and be there own way. Oh well you cant change what others think... They have to change it themselves xp Tarter sauce... domokun
Today i bought these cool earings xd Theyre rubbery spikey circular and the colors are black and white 3nodding i also bought three more of a different shape design but different colors mrgreen The three are dices and two of them have white dots and the other black. Pink and blue were the ones with the white dots and the white dice is the one with the black dots. blaugh ... cant wait for school to start... i'm going to be a total punk for the first day of school xd then preppy then punk then preppy then punk, its a cycle blaugh . I dont like labels but thats the only way i'll be able to describe it sweatdrop what can i say i love punk and preppy styles. 3nodding Though punk more then preppy but my mom doesnt like punk as much so to please her and sometimes my self i dress preppy -_-;; xD
hehe i'm ready for skool xd blaugh I bought a MCR(My Chemical Romance) Book bag, an awesome binder, kool mechincal pencils and 5 subject notebook mrgreen rofl Also new jewlery, clothes, shoes (including ethnics rofl ) and new hair to go along with it!! blaugh (I'm going to go to the beauty salon to try on a permant thing to make my hair straight for a while and i'm able to get wet and everything rofl hope it works xd )
Yup... I'm prepared!! All my friends are prepared as well!! everyone dress they're best on the first week of school!! where your favorite things and new things either way to start you off with a smile on your face!! blaugh I'll be calling to see what you'll wear for the first week of school... ninja Feel free to callz me!! blaugh rofl
(Umm For the two friends of mine who are fighting... If you read what i said about the fight please dont take it seriously xp I sometimes get into these moods where i need to express myself gonk I know i might be hard on you guys but it still pretty sad how a friendship can end in a bad way cry as wellz... sweatdrop I know i write alot well thats what i like to do alright^^ )
See ya in the next Journal Entry!! ^_^
 Creamery · Thu Aug 04, 2005 @ 04:43am · 1 Comments |
