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I don't know why I even bother with this thing, no one ever reads it anyways....Oh well, I guess in the end it doesn't really matter whether anyone cares what's on my mind or what's bringing me down anyways. Either way, I keep getting led back to the very same conclusions, that people will always hurt you.. I think perhaps I'm the real idiot for waiting for someone to prove me wrong in that conclusion....I'm happy now though, and I'd do anything to keep things this way. I keep hoping that this time, it's real, and I'm not just gonna get left out of things, or forgotten about. I don't want to be hurt like before, but slowly, my logic is telling me it's okay to trust at least a little bit..Thinking about it, I've thought even about things that were never in my life plans before...I'm so confused, and yet, I can't help but be happy. I smile alot, almost everytime I think about things, but I'm still afraid to get too close.., or be too needy.
What am I saying? I'm very needy. I'm just the kind of person who needs to be important and get more attention than probably most people need, but I only need it from one person, so it's not like I could be labeled the show-offy type or anything.. I just wonder how close is too close. I don't want to miss anyone so much after only a few hours. but maybe that's really okay and I don't know..

Oh well, maybe I'll figure things out more in time. confused Besides~ Not like anyone will be reading this anyways sweatdrop