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Let me cry,
I just want to.
Let me wash,
My sheets with pain.
Let me drown,
In all this sorrow.
For another tomorrow,
I shall see again.
But I feel the need,
For more expression,
I’ve lost my shoulders,
From the weight,
I have always carried on them.
I want to bleed,
But, I don’t need a blade.
I can bleed,
By just surrendering to this pain.
This loss,
The absence of my friend.
I don’t want to lose,
But, it seems inevitable,
All good things must end.
I must say goodbye,
To someone else,
Dear to my heart,
But for years,
We’ve been apart.
And now in all this glory,
I say goodbye again,
And it’s the same story.
And there are others,
Whom I have loved.
And over the years,
Bonds we have formed.
I know many of them,
Will not remember me,
But I will still miss them,
As I go on my own,
Into the world of the unknown.
And that scares me,
Because once more I am alone.
And in my head,
I had never imagined me being.
I had always had someone by my side.
But my mind played tricks,
And to the illusion,
I was forced to say goodbye.
I have lost so much,
In a space of a few weeks.
And now my heart hearts,
Because the time,
I don’t have.
I have to find the strength,
Cause when all is said and done,
I have to face the cold world,
On my own.
The final decisions,
Are mine to make,
There are a lot of choices,
That must be made.
I must be strong,
And I am trying to manage.
With my walls of steel,
I’ll keep on enduring.
I’ll pull through,
And my hear will live,
To tell its tale,
To all who cares to hear it.
But for now I’ll retire,
To my bed of security,
To my loneliness and solitude;
Where I know I won’t be happy.
But as time goes on,
I will learn to be happy,
Because as time goes by,
I’ll make the ultimate sacrifice,
Because through this tough time I must survive.