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Things r crazy nd i cant think stright while tears r flowing down ma face. If this waz a peice of paper den it would be a soggy puddle of ink right now. Im tying ta put wut just happened on a journal entry ad its not working. I thought i really loved him ad i thought he loved me but if he really loved me then y would he just brake my heart like tht...?? He gave me an option of bein best friends or ta hate each other. But i cant just be friends with him cause i want ta be so much more den tht nd i could never hate him cause i dont feel anything towords him except for love. Im confused with feelings. My brain is saying tht i should be furious with him for just leavin me lik tht. But my heart iz just feelin saddness. Something tht a heart should never feel. I always do wut my heart tells me ta do....ad it usally leads me in da right direction. But tht direction iz scaring me ad i rather walk da oder direction which leads into forgetting this mess. But i know tht i could never forget about this...