You broke my heart a thousand times, said means things, and made me cry. You told me lies, broke promises, and compared me with others. You always wanted me to be something I'm not... Small changes that I don't like, that I think would mess up my way of living...
But you showed me love and you made me happy. You made me feel special and pretty and everything else. I centered all my dreams around you and included you in everything I saw in my future.
Yea, I got mad for a day or two... But now that I look at it, I never stopped loving you. I might have said that I hated you once or twice... But really, I can't stop thinking about you. My thoughts and memories make me cry, but atleast I knew I was happy then.
Not much has changed, though... Besides the more arguing and crying... Also the not saying I love you, which I still can't get over. I think I see you more now since you broke up with me...
Maybe a lot of it was my fault, though. I didn't comply to what you wanted. And what you wanted was simple, really... I'm just so afraid of everything and everyone...
At the end of the day, when I've said good night and everyone else logs out... I sit here in tears. All I want is some one to tell me they love me and actually mean it. All I want is for you to tell me you care. And all I want in life is you. Yea, I picture myself with others... They don't know me though. You know everything about me, pretty much. Plus, I've known you for years and I trust you more then my own family. Just tell me what it takes to get you back here... Tell me what it takes to stop me from crying.
I love you so ******** much, but in reality I guess that isn't enough anymore. You have no clue how hard it is to be me sometimes.
All I want is to go back to normal... I want it to be me and you and nobody else. Me and you and love, like old times.
I'm dying here inside,
I miss you more each day,
There's not a night I haven't cried,
And baby, here's the truth...
I'm still in love with you.
 MarionetteOfShadows · Fri Jul 25, 2008 @ 03:33am · 0 Comments |
