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I feel not exactly sad, but disappointed in myself.

Today I had a swim meet, the first one I've had in a while.
I swam three events, 50 meters freestyle, 50 meters breastroke, and 200 medley relay.

In the 50 meters freestyle, my time was about 37 seconds. My friend/rival Julianne got 33 seconds. My other friend/rival Laisani got 34 seconds, and she's only 10 years old. I did not get a B time. Again, I am still stuck in the C division.

In the 50 meters breastroke, my time was 45.62 seconds. Laisani got 45.64 seconds. At least I beat her, but then again, she's only 10. I'm 2 years older than her but I barely passed her time. But Julianne got 44.90 seconds. I used to be faster than her by quite a bit, but now she's much faster than me. Like freestyle, I did not get a B time. Trapped in the C division.

In the 200 medley relay, I was doing backstroke. Me, Laisani, and Julianne were not in the same relay team but we were all doing backstroke. My time was about 40 seconds. My team came second in the heat, but there were only 2 other teams, and we were only in the 1st heat. I got to watch part of the second heat, the heat that Julianne was in. She got about the same time as me, even though backstroke is her worst stroke. I didn't see what place her team got, but all the teams were extremely fast. I doubted we were gonna get any ribbons. For relays, ribbons are given out to 1st through 3rd place, and I could already tell we were far behind 3rd.
As for Laisani, I never watched her event. I just went home.

In this whole meet, I didn't get a ribbon. I haven't gotten any awards in over a year. I have been stuck in the C division while Julianne has already proceeded to the B division. I can't compare myself with Laisani, because she is in a different age group. But I do know that she is WAY faster than I was when I was 10.

However, I do have another day to go. I have 4 more events tomorrow, and I hope I do better.