I wish i had a journal. That way when i come up with something good to write... i wont forget! That way when I'm sitting under the Cherry Blossom Tree in my yard on a warm, breezy day... or i'm swimming through the cool water on a day in early summer when the cicadas are singing... i can write the things that come to mind.
When I'm writing here.... im in a dark and musty basment.... but out there my words edge on poetic. SO! ^_^ I think I'll start a journal. Not to record my life... not like a diary... but to write spontainously... and mabe doodle ^_^ (tee hee doodle) but for now... im broke gonk . so I need to raise money ^_^ .... that might take another 2000 years though 4laugh .
You know... I was just thinking today.... how my friends are like the ocean. Beautiful and forboding things. Comforting and mysterious things... that run deeper than we can reach. However they can also be unforgiving and angry things. How can something be so scary and so horrible...? Well... I guess you never really know the ocean... until you explore it for yourself. =)...
It's strange. How much.. you love the things you hate...? Isn't it?
Sometimes... i wish i lived on an island in the middle of the ocean... all by myself. There I would always be alone. And free to do what i wanted. And never have to see anyone again... it's sad. But thinking about it makes me happy... ^-^; contradictoiry much? But that can never happen =) so I'll just swim for now. And imagine I'm flying.
NEW SUBJECT! ^w^~! Growing up, means learning about yourself >3 and i have learned many things... but the one that scares me most ... is... that i can forget people so easily.
When I go away, I become someone new. And, that person comes with no strings attatched. I let go of the people i once cared so much for... and it's as if they never existed. I can't say i don't think about them... But i can't say i really missed them either. And does that make me a bad person? For not feeling an ounce of guilt? I really don't know. But there (whereve ther is), i feel invincable, confident, and happy. While here, i meerley pretend to be content, and slip along like one of the crowd. A zombie that listens to the drone and masks herself so she pretends to care. Sad really. Pathetic is more like it. But I didn't write this to throw a pitty party. I wrote this to reflect. And, half of what i write you might not even be reading... does it make you curious? ... 3<
You'll never know.... ninja *do do do dodo* xD lol
When I'm writing here.... im in a dark and musty basment.... but out there my words edge on poetic. SO! ^_^ I think I'll start a journal. Not to record my life... not like a diary... but to write spontainously... and mabe doodle ^_^ (tee hee doodle) but for now... im broke gonk . so I need to raise money ^_^ .... that might take another 2000 years though 4laugh .
You know... I was just thinking today.... how my friends are like the ocean. Beautiful and forboding things. Comforting and mysterious things... that run deeper than we can reach. However they can also be unforgiving and angry things. How can something be so scary and so horrible...? Well... I guess you never really know the ocean... until you explore it for yourself. =)...
It's strange. How much.. you love the things you hate...? Isn't it?
Sometimes... i wish i lived on an island in the middle of the ocean... all by myself. There I would always be alone. And free to do what i wanted. And never have to see anyone again... it's sad. But thinking about it makes me happy... ^-^; contradictoiry much? But that can never happen =) so I'll just swim for now. And imagine I'm flying.
NEW SUBJECT! ^w^~! Growing up, means learning about yourself >3 and i have learned many things... but the one that scares me most ... is... that i can forget people so easily.
When I go away, I become someone new. And, that person comes with no strings attatched. I let go of the people i once cared so much for... and it's as if they never existed. I can't say i don't think about them... But i can't say i really missed them either. And does that make me a bad person? For not feeling an ounce of guilt? I really don't know. But there (whereve ther is), i feel invincable, confident, and happy. While here, i meerley pretend to be content, and slip along like one of the crowd. A zombie that listens to the drone and masks herself so she pretends to care. Sad really. Pathetic is more like it. But I didn't write this to throw a pitty party. I wrote this to reflect. And, half of what i write you might not even be reading... does it make you curious? ... 3<
You'll never know.... ninja *do do do dodo* xD lol
Well I'm reading the Mang Hana-Kimi and its pretty good... I mean HOW MANY mangas about a girl at a school wo has to disguise herself as a boy... but this one's ok ^_^ and i ususally don'y like songs and mv's like thgis that dipict characterXcharacter... but this song is addicting O.o!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SFIaP8jtjoE
and this ong grew on me... (hated it at first)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pAmpOS7JwqE
