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Amazing observation Ms. Sweet, I don't know how you figured it out.
I gave no hint or indication that I did.
But you're right, and not only to I like him, I'd go so far as to say I love him.
That's troublesome for you?
I'm sorry.
How much do I like him you ask?
Honestly, I love him so much that I can't find the right words to describe.
He is by far the most amazing person I've ever met and the most important person in my life.
Before I met him, Love was an over-used four letter word with no real meaning.
Then he came along, and I learned that love is a feeling, the feeling in which your heart seems to beat slower yet faster at the same time, it hurts but feels good all at once.
More so, it's real.
And all I had to do was think of him.
Since then, the feeling has lessened from getting used to thinking about him, but its still there.
I know he can't say the same. . .
Before him, my life had no reason, I was more than willing to die the first chance I got.
After we met, I had a reason to live, him, and suddenly, even forever didn't seem long enough.
He taught me that not all people, especially men, were horrible.
He made me laugh when no one else could.
He's made me cry too, but I love him all the same.
I've let him hear me cry, no one else but my dear Ellie has.
And, normally, I would have been so ashamed to let someone hear, but not him.
He is by far the nicest person I have ever met,. . .well, basically,
He's perfect.
I dare not tell her all of this, instead I say "Quite a bit." and leave it at that.
Then I get a "I think he's going to ask me out. . .if he does, I'm going to say yes."
Wait a minute, how did you get this assumption Ms. Sweet?
Surely you didn't pull this out of thin air. . .
So I think it over, and think, and think .
Back to my unhappy place.
I'm kind of hurt by this.
"Good luck with that, if he does, I hope you make him happy."
Maybe he does want her.
I told him it's okay if he finds himself liking someone else, I want what's best for him.
I know if I lose him, it's going to hurt like hell.
But I'll live, for a while at least.
She'd be the luckiest girl in the world.
I'd figured we wouldn't last.
I mean, he's perfect, I'm the exact opposite.
Well, if it makes you feel any better Ms Sweet, he'd much rather talk to you than he would me.


To my Dearest: I love you more.