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well ..i told people that i broke up with austin
well they were all like WHAT!.
when other people are like yes!
like my brother tj,
chelsea, peter..
well now tommor..
peter asking me out!
wtf.........T.T.......
i dont know what to say.......
the truth is austin..i love u
but there 4-5 reason why i broke up with u
1. it cuz of the long distance..and not seeing u kills me.....
2. cuz i want a guy i can hold,kiss,hug,,ect..see everyday..(im sorry)
3. you didnt know this..but deep down sometimes u were hurting me..T.T.
4.(ok there only 4) this is the one ..i was so scared to tell u...but...when we where going out..my heart still felt empty..and i found out. part of my heart belong to someoene else..and i dont know why..but i loved two people at once..im soooo sorry..i hope someday u forgive and look back on this and i dont care what u say..u can call me a whore..and slut...ill agree with u..thou okay maybe im not..but hell boy..i feel that way.............T.T.........but this boy is peter he my ex-bf..and prouberly soon gonna be my new bf...T.T..but the way peter acts with me...the way he tells me i love u..makes me smile...but when austin does it ..i smile too...its just ..i know there no such thing as perfect love but so far...before..me and peter had it ..but i was a stupid b***h and i broke up with him...and im a stupid whore for breaking up with austin....T.T....im sorry austin..i do love u and i hope someday..we can see each other more.. and me and u can get back together..cuz i dont care if ur asian....i love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
austin ill give u this much...ur nothing like peter..ur the one who wants to kiss me and all that ..not even peter wants to do that ...at least i dont thing...but no guy has done that to me T.T but when u did that ..i felt like i was really being kissed....i was like dam boy...i love u.......................T.T..im a stupid slut!
im such a b***h,slut,whore...all that ..all i want to do now is die.!!!!..there nothing left for me on this world now...................................................
IM SORRY AUSTIN!