Addicted. To a song. That brings back bad memories.
That last day... x.x On that FINAL bus ride home...Why did I have to search for that song?! That song I listened to! IT DRIVES ME INSANE! No, I SHALL NOT TELL WHAT IT IS. I can't type it again! BUT I CAN LISTEN TO IT. SOMETHING IS WRONG WITH ME. WHY DO I WANT TO REMEMBER THAT DAY WHEN IT MAKES ME FEEL WORSE! I FEEL BAD ENOUGH.
Why does my mind want to keep me feeling bad?! Mixing bad old memories with new bad ones! GOD, I CAN'T TAKE IT.
I keep pulling my hair! I keep scratching myself! I want to feel my head being pounded into the ground! SHOOT ME, BEFORE I SHOOT THEM!
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Maybe I went a little too over board.
I just had a very strong reaction. Well, I realize...I did not forgive those at my old school like I believed I did. Maybe I believed it for a while.
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This s**t is not cool.
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