What Does This Mean To Me
I don't know what else there is to say to that. I don't know what to feel other than being so guilty. For one thing it was about just being friends with him. I didn't know what to do about the long distance thing. I was afraid of something, and I think I was afraid of losing him to someone else. How corny was that? But it's all true. I can't hide it, and I think that he already knows. I was afraid the first time I saw him, that he would hate me. My friend told me that he doesn't like me anymore, and I had no objection to that. But why did he have to hug me? Why did he make himself look attractive, knowing that I would fall for him all over again... I thought that I can go on without him, but I know that it won't happen. Ever time I want to break the glass, he just tapes it up again. I can't ignore what mistake I made that he always has to clean up. I'm sorry if that made it hard on you. And this "you" know who he is....
That time when I saw him after a while, I completely ignored him, then I began to slowly drift towards him. Yes, corny again, I know. But that time when we were outside and I wanted to sit, he opened his arms up tome for a hug. I wanted to ignore it so bad, but I didn't. That didn't mean that I liked him or anything like that, but it means to me that we're still friends and that he just wanted a hug. But when we started to take pictures, me and him took a Romeo and Juliet one. That whole time I was standing there for my friend to take a picture, I stared at his eyes, so lost in it. I didn't know if that was the moment that I fell over for him again, but whatever it was, I think that it already worked...
Then when we were coming to my house, he played with my fingers. At first I thought that he was just flirting with me and everything like that, and I didn't want to ask him the question. When we arrived at my house, all the people went to my room. I usually thought that everyone would go to my brother's room, but I was surprised! Anyways, my friends and my cousins played their guitar together. It was like "WOW!" They were so mad good together! Like not even funny! My cousins + my brother * my guy friend = AWESOMENESS!!!!! They made a whole song up! I was literally jealous or them, not even funny!
The most funnies thing that happened in my room happened. My cousin was playing the guitar on the floor and my friend was on the bed with my other cousin. I was holding my Oppa, or my pillow on my lap, and my friend laid down on top of my pillow when my older cousin was there!!!!!! I was crying cause my cousin Justin, who was on the floor playing his guitar was like, "What the hell you think you're doing?" My friend Kenshin said, "I'm lying down," So Justin was like, "Yeah, on my cousin?!" OMG! The most funnies thing was that Kenshin was like, "So," and my cousin Justin asked me or something like, "Do you guys like each other?!". So my other friend Mi was sitting on the chair playing my PSP and she got all quiet and I began cracking up!!!! It was soooooooooooo funny to me the way he acted like that! But I can see why cause I'm his cousin and everything and he just wants to watch over me.
There was this time when Kenshin was showing me how to sing this song "I'd hate to be you if people found out what this song is about" and he playing it on the guitar. So I wanted to sing along with him and he was staring at me the whole time I was trying to catch up to him. There was this on part on the lyrics he was singing, that I already knew, and it went like... 'Well I'm thinking of the worst things, that I could say to you
But a promise doesn't mean a thing,' and the next word was "anymore" and I was trying to sing that part with him, but then he stopped and said, "I'm sorry. I lost my concentration. I was too busy staring at you. You're so beautiful." and then my friend, Mi was like, "O-oooo-kay....? Awkward much!" So then I said "Thank you" to him and everything and he began to play again, avoiding my face. That time when I sang, "anymore" with him, I gave him my smile and at the same time, I think my heart. Corny again.. yeah get over it!
There was this one time when my friend, Mi and I went outside with my cousin Justin to talk. I asked him about the thing that happened and he said it was sort of the protective thing he said to me. Then he got into the whole idea of when you get into high school, that you might lose something if you don't be careful. I went back in after that, and we watched a horror movie. He was sitting behind me at first on the bed and then I didn't want to watch it like so close, so i came to sit on the floor. Mi, and my cousins and other people were there to watch it. I was still scared after watching it so many times! Most of the time, I was leaning against him and there were other times when I got soooooo mad scared that I needed a hug. I told him to come down with me cause I didn't want to sit there alone with the bathroom room open right in front of me. So after that, it was all about MSK!
My friend, Mi and Kenshin, and I took mad pictures after that! We did the killing pose! First it was Kenshin killing Mi and it looked mad awesome! He looked mad hot doing the pose too!!! And when Mi did it, she looked like a hot guy in a girl's body! I was about to kneel down for her autograph! That was how great she was! We even took pictures of MSK! YUP! We took one when Kenshin and I were the pieces of the heart, and Mi was in the middle! It was mad hot! You'll see! And then we took pictures in the bathroom! Yeah! BATHROOM! And they were serious pictures if I may add! And Kenshin was in the bathroom playing his guitar.
I don't know what else there is to say to that. I don't know what to feel other than being so guilty. For one thing it was about just being friends with him. I didn't know what to do about the long distance thing. I was afraid of something, and I think I was afraid of losing him to someone else. How corny was that? But it's all true. I can't hide it, and I think that he already knows. I was afraid the first time I saw him, that he would hate me. My friend told me that he doesn't like me anymore, and I had no objection to that. But why did he have to hug me? Why did he make himself look attractive, knowing that I would fall for him all over again... I thought that I can go on without him, but I know that it won't happen. Ever time I want to break the glass, he just tapes it up again. I can't ignore what mistake I made that he always has to clean up. I'm sorry if that made it hard on you. And this "you" know who he is....
That time when I saw him after a while, I completely ignored him, then I began to slowly drift towards him. Yes, corny again, I know. But that time when we were outside and I wanted to sit, he opened his arms up tome for a hug. I wanted to ignore it so bad, but I didn't. That didn't mean that I liked him or anything like that, but it means to me that we're still friends and that he just wanted a hug. But when we started to take pictures, me and him took a Romeo and Juliet one. That whole time I was standing there for my friend to take a picture, I stared at his eyes, so lost in it. I didn't know if that was the moment that I fell over for him again, but whatever it was, I think that it already worked...
Then when we were coming to my house, he played with my fingers. At first I thought that he was just flirting with me and everything like that, and I didn't want to ask him the question. When we arrived at my house, all the people went to my room. I usually thought that everyone would go to my brother's room, but I was surprised! Anyways, my friends and my cousins played their guitar together. It was like "WOW!" They were so mad good together! Like not even funny! My cousins + my brother * my guy friend = AWESOMENESS!!!!! They made a whole song up! I was literally jealous or them, not even funny!
The most funnies thing that happened in my room happened. My cousin was playing the guitar on the floor and my friend was on the bed with my other cousin. I was holding my Oppa, or my pillow on my lap, and my friend laid down on top of my pillow when my older cousin was there!!!!!! I was crying cause my cousin Justin, who was on the floor playing his guitar was like, "What the hell you think you're doing?" My friend Kenshin said, "I'm lying down," So Justin was like, "Yeah, on my cousin?!" OMG! The most funnies thing was that Kenshin was like, "So," and my cousin Justin asked me or something like, "Do you guys like each other?!". So my other friend Mi was sitting on the chair playing my PSP and she got all quiet and I began cracking up!!!! It was soooooooooooo funny to me the way he acted like that! But I can see why cause I'm his cousin and everything and he just wants to watch over me.
There was this time when Kenshin was showing me how to sing this song "I'd hate to be you if people found out what this song is about" and he playing it on the guitar. So I wanted to sing along with him and he was staring at me the whole time I was trying to catch up to him. There was this on part on the lyrics he was singing, that I already knew, and it went like... 'Well I'm thinking of the worst things, that I could say to you
But a promise doesn't mean a thing,' and the next word was "anymore" and I was trying to sing that part with him, but then he stopped and said, "I'm sorry. I lost my concentration. I was too busy staring at you. You're so beautiful." and then my friend, Mi was like, "O-oooo-kay....? Awkward much!" So then I said "Thank you" to him and everything and he began to play again, avoiding my face. That time when I sang, "anymore" with him, I gave him my smile and at the same time, I think my heart. Corny again.. yeah get over it!
There was this one time when my friend, Mi and I went outside with my cousin Justin to talk. I asked him about the thing that happened and he said it was sort of the protective thing he said to me. Then he got into the whole idea of when you get into high school, that you might lose something if you don't be careful. I went back in after that, and we watched a horror movie. He was sitting behind me at first on the bed and then I didn't want to watch it like so close, so i came to sit on the floor. Mi, and my cousins and other people were there to watch it. I was still scared after watching it so many times! Most of the time, I was leaning against him and there were other times when I got soooooo mad scared that I needed a hug. I told him to come down with me cause I didn't want to sit there alone with the bathroom room open right in front of me. So after that, it was all about MSK!
My friend, Mi and Kenshin, and I took mad pictures after that! We did the killing pose! First it was Kenshin killing Mi and it looked mad awesome! He looked mad hot doing the pose too!!! And when Mi did it, she looked like a hot guy in a girl's body! I was about to kneel down for her autograph! That was how great she was! We even took pictures of MSK! YUP! We took one when Kenshin and I were the pieces of the heart, and Mi was in the middle! It was mad hot! You'll see! And then we took pictures in the bathroom! Yeah! BATHROOM! And they were serious pictures if I may add! And Kenshin was in the bathroom playing his guitar.
