i feel as if my life is going upside down all over again. a last year, i went through an emotional stage. i put up a barier around me and i wouldnt really speak to anyone. why? well i cant really put it up, but overall i didnt like something about my past and wat i did. im going through that same s**t over again, except i dont know why im putting up a barrier... i just feel... out of it, you know? like i could do something at any moment in time and i wouldnt even care. im consistently trying to be alone, but when im alone, i feel like someone i dont want to be. so im trapped between being alone and letting people into my life. i feel high when im not even on drugs. gonk ... although im not completely trapped... theres this boy at school that i really like and hes always trying to make me feel better. when im around him.... i feel more normal. just like when im around my family, i feel normal. but when im not with my family and hes not with me.... well... i feel out of it. not even my friends can help me. although i didnt tell them about how im feeling because i know they'd say im acting like a drama queen. i cant tell anyone because thats wat everyone will say... im acting like a drama queen... but in reality, i need help! i need help badly. i cant keep depending on my family and that boy, cuz if i do... i wont make it in life. if anyone has any advise what-so-ever, then please send me a message.
 coolasfudgems · Sat Dec 13, 2008 @ 07:14am · 0 Comments |
